I love my life now. Well before to be exact. It's not that I don't like it, I do I really do but sometimes there's too many trial been given to me. For example my family issues. This christmas I was asked to go back. I even get scolded for not wanting to go back. It's not that I don't want to go back but if I go back, my mother's problems will increase! I'm sure of it. She don't mind. As long as I'm home. My father disagree. Because if I go back I will only be home for 3 days! Waste of time and waste of money! Me and my dad thought of the same thing. Money. But my mom had already set her mind.That is for me to be back home for Christmas. I appreciate that but I can't do this to her. Her burden will only increase. BURDENS! That's what I am now.
You see if I stayed in IPG back in Sabah I wouldn't have this problem. Not just money that can be saved, but also lessen my mother's burden. Because I would have money. I have that opportunity but I wasted it! My mind is set and there's nothing that can change my mind to stay there. How selfish of me! Never thought about what's ahead and this is what I have to go through with. If only I appreciated what I had.
My point here is everyone have their own wish. Their wants to be precise. It's not necessary unless it can help to reduce instead of piling your problems. Your first mission is completed then what? You think there'll be no danger ahead? What you have is already in front of you but yet you want what's more than what you get. Normal. But think before you act. Regrets is always at the back not in front. So don't be selfish! Did I mention I hate those kind of peoples? ( I know I know in some part of life we'll be selfish too but please don't be too full of yourself, I only realize my selfishness after I went through this haunted house with my friends, me, Soraya, Sharon and Pravita went to this haunted house in our college and I dragged Sharon by the hand so that I can walk ahead and she lost her bracelet for that! I feel so guilty I didn't even said I'm sorry the proper way HAHA sorry Sharon!)
Appreciate what you had! APPRECIATE WHAT YOU ARE! Blaming won't do you any good. Don't tell me I'm talking crap if you know what I mean. You can't have everything what other people had. Work for it! You can do it. For boys, I don't think there's problem. But do it the right way. You'll appreciate more. For girls, you're not a princess! You think the world will serve their best for you? (No offense but girls are really good at whining it's not our fault though we were born as a precious) Blaming and stating about how you wish you had a better life. (Well me too but I came to realize it's not what I'm after for in life that matters, It took me awhile though, but it really is the way we create our colours that matters) It's hard to appreciate but learning is the process of life. I want to list it down but I'm obviously don't know where to start. Go figure it out. It's amazing how you see the way you treated people that have been helping you to be what you are now.
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