I remember it very well 4 years ago when someone asks me "How come you don't know how's you're best friend i thought you're supposed to know" and i replied to him this way, " I don't know, people change every year how am I supposed to keep up". That's the me who don't care the people around me and doesn't give a damn about my life because I never actually let anyone into my life that easily.
Even after 3 years of friendship. For the past years I feel like I have everything. Including life. As I look back I see nothing. What have I achieved for the past years? What i wanted to say is I'm blinded by my so-called simple life back at those years. Life is never simple. Things will never stayed the same. Things will always change. People will always change. Like seasons. It's the same every year, same celebration but with different situation. As life moved on, the circle of friendship increases. Different people with different types of introduction (I'm writing an essay now). Okay stop no more explanation.
My point is as I see the people I care the most from afar, I felt a bit isolated and ignored from their life. Maybe it's just because I wanted to be part of theirs. It's impossible to be part of theirs if now we're on our separates way. We're not on the same tracks anymore and it's hard to keep up when you know all they ever wanted was to forgets what had happened before. As if it's a boring book you will never ever wanted to read anymore. Memories to be precise. The jokes will not be funny anymore. The times we spent together will only be a simple "I miss everything".
I miss my moment I really do and I have a time machine I will hit the replay button every second. I should be grateful but it's different now and I find it weird. It's still the same now hanging with you but it's different. Too different. I'm not jealous.
Our 1st Sleepover
This is my 1st too with Edith~
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